Broken Trust
Almost three months ago, my line manager went for a 3 month long leave. And due to some whatever reasons, no proper handover were given to me and colleague. No brief, nothing! So for the last 3 months, we had done our very best to keep everything in good order as not to let her down.During her absence, eventhough we were quite overwhelmed with work as we were 2 man short, we were much happier.
She finally came back this week and oh boy, I was not thrilled at all. She seems to enjoy picking people's mistakes to make herself look good. Let's put it this way, if there is a black hole in front of us, she has been watching us fall deep into the drain from the back, and only come out with a ladder once everyone had fell to look like a hero. Evil, I know..but that's the kind of vibe that she is giving me now.
I've lost whatever trust that I had for her. Everything she done now make me feel like she has some ulterior motive behind it. It's very disappointing and I seriously hate the feelings of having to be alert all the time because if I am not, she will push me down from the cliff. I hate this feelings.
The first day of her return, it was enough to drive me to find and applied for new job. It's that bad. No joke! Although I felt like a total traitor towards my senior manager because I really love reporting to her. Compare to the line manager, my senior manager seems like an angel. The difference in their way of working is totally day and night, heaven and hell.
I felt really thankful and eternally grateful for her guidance this past three months and I had seriously wished and prayed that it would be extended. I wanted to continuously develop myself in this current company, but the meager pay and evil manager really left me with no choice.
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